Pre-Recovery: Suicidal thoughts Hello to all: Recovery can be difficult without outside help. Unless you are blessed with an Enlightenment experience -- that sudden life changing moment, you are in for a long slog. As you grow in recovery, certain negatives should emerge to challenge you. You might face many dragons along the way. In fact right now in this moment you may want to do self harm, perhaps you are thinking of self termination. Let me ask you some questions. Silently answer Yes or No to each question. Are you thinking of hurting yourself (committing suicide) ? How long have you been thinking about suicide (frequency, intensity, duration) ? Do you have a plan ? Do you have the means to carry out the plan? Have you attempted suicide in the past? Has someone in your family committed suicide? Is there anything or anyone to stop you (religious beliefs, children left behind, pets, etc.) ? ...
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ReplyDeleteThe story of the Lotus:
"The lotus flower blooms most beautifully from the deepest mud" - Buddhist Proverb
The lotus flower is one of the most remarkable creations in nature. Its beauty lies in its purity, because this magnificent flower emerges from the bottom of a pond, yet rises above its muddy depths to become a thing of beauty, signifying spiritual elevation and growth.
Hello to all: The flower of recovery is within you today. Now in the present, even when you were in the depths of despair. Even when you were intentionally walking the path to suicide. Even when you felt helpless, hopeless, without inner harmony. The flower of recovery was there.
Thirty five years ago, I felt like a hard cooked egg that had been dropped to many times. There was no exit for me, I thought except to take a 'dirt nap' I was disconnected from my family, my friends, and from myself. Then I took the first step. I surrendered and sought help.
No one, of course, is the person they were in the past. We change daily, spiraling up -- and sometimes down.. but changing. The person I am today is the result of 12,792 days of recovery. I am still in recovery. I would like to share my thoughts with you.
with deep metta (loving kindness)
Coralee
Thank you
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