Pre-Recovery: Suicidal thoughts

 Hello to all: 

Recovery can be difficult without outside help.  Unless you are blessed with an Enlightenment experience -- that sudden life changing moment, you are in for a long slog. As you grow in recovery, certain negatives should emerge to challenge you. You might face many dragons along the way. 

In fact right now in this moment you may want to do self harm, perhaps you are thinking of self termination.  Let me ask you some questions. Silently answer Yes or No to each question. 

Are you thinking of hurting yourself (committing suicide)?

How long have you been thinking about suicide (frequency, intensity, duration)?

Do you have a plan?

Do you have the means to carry out the plan?

Have you attempted suicide in the past?

Has someone in your family committed suicide? 

Is there anything or anyone to stop you (religious beliefs, children left behind, pets, etc.)? 

                                                                   ( adapted from Fact Sheet 6 American Counseling Association)

If you are in pre-recovery and are being honest with me and your self, you already have answered yes at least once. You are thinking of hurting yourself, because you are hurting yourself. You do have the means to carry it out. 

If you answer yes to all of these questions. STOP READING THIS BLOG. GET UP AND CALL: 1-800-273-8255 available 24/7.  or google National Suicide Prevention Hotline to link to an online chat. Or. click on the same information for you State or Municipality.  

If you are put on hold think of this as the Universe's way of keeping you around a bit longer.  

My Buddhist therapist told me "If you kill yourself, you will just have to come back and do it again."  My life was so miserable, that thought of a do over scared me enough to stop planning to end my life.   

If you do this now, thanks you will be around for the rest of your adventure. I hope you do.  We are all going to die eventually, why not wait your turn? 

with metta (loving kindness) to you