Pre Recovery -  Your Body - How do you feel today? 

Did you wake up this morning, wishing you hadn't? Do you need to crawl to the bathroom and drink copious amounts of water? Are you telling your cat to please! do not stomp? Is there a small snare drum above your left eyebrow, pounding in time to your heart beat? 

Did you wake this morning with a black eye, from someone who said "you made me mad." Is your back already tense from having to walk on eggshells? Is there a tightness in your chest that is slowly squeezing your soul? 

Did you wake this morning sweating and shaking needing that next fix?  Are you nauseous? Vomiting? Do you think you might have the flu? Do your joints ache? Can you stop yawning? Do you really need to call your dealer? 

Did you wake this morning realizing you could not sleep very much? Are you tired, tired, tired? Are you suddenly and totally ravenous? Are you down on the floor snorting chips of detritus, hoping they are bits of your drug of choice? 

Did you wake up this morning seeing something could not be real, but there it was? Are there holes in reality everywhere you look? Are wolves walking around your bedroom? Do you see bad skin eruptions when you look in the mirror? Did you just lose a tooth? 

Did you wake up this morning look over and not recognize the person(s) next to you? Are experiencing symptoms of a Sexually Transmitted Disease? Can you not, not think of finding another person to help satisfy your desires?

Did you wake up this morning feeling bloated,  uncomfortable or just empty? Is the enamel on your teeth thinning because you have been vomiting? Is there a fine hair on your arms and shoulders? Are you waddling instead of walking? Do you think a dozen doughnuts is a reasonable breakfast? 

Did you wake up this morning with aches in your knees from praying for hours yesterday? Are your ears still ringing from the loud music from last night? Is your back sore from yesterday's flagellation?

Have you cut yourself off from your body so you do not have to feel? 

Do you identify with any of these questions? Think then... maybe maybe your are addicted. 

Sources: 

www.ministrymagazine.org//www.verywellmind.com//www.samhsa.gov/www.psychguides.com

 


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